Walking Medical Miracle or Just Hard to Kill???

Hi there!  You know when you see a zillion ants scurrying like mad to and from their hill or home or whatever?  There is always some large insect, maybe a beetle or even a butterfly on it's back that the ants aren't yet attacking, the ants just scurry around the flipped over obstruction.  You know as a kid you could be a good samaritan and flip that beetle over because you know if you leave the huge bug on it's back it is completely helpless and soon the ants will notice the larger beetle and carry it away, the ants just see dinner for their queen.  That's a good description of how I feel every day, like the world has turned upside down, and me with it.  I feel pretty healthy if the world would stop spinning I'd be fine.  If the ground would stop falling away from under my feet, I would be able to repair some of the damage the brain tumor left.  One of my doctors remarked that I was a "walking medical  miracle", since the cancer was really gone like it was never there.  Getting rid of the tumor came at such a high price, I'm not sure I can pay it.  I'm reduced to  relearning basic physical skills that I learned as a baby and I'm not suited to it.  I can't speak, I'm not exactly sure why so I type, a lot.  At the end of the day, I'm grateful to be alive but living is painful and a big struggle.       I feel like I'm a large bug on my back,  just set me on my feet and I'll be fine!  If I have to retrain my brain to balance, walk, see, etc.,I could be here forever.  Doctors will be the first to tell you they still only have three ways to treat you:  (1)  Medication (2) Counseling (3) Surgery.   I don't believe in the first two and I have enough information to not have much hope for "miracle surgery".  I hope I'm wrong and I often am wrong, because I still have a lot to do and people counting on me.

So I guess I'll keep working towards better-than-before-recovery.

Thought for the Day:  Do you think that Matthew McCaughnehey called up Lance Armstrong after he was stripped of all his Tour de France titles and said something along the lines of:  "Dude, really?  Duuuuuude!"