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My faith in the laws of physics was partially restored today. I fell down which is not restorative or particularly unusual for me. Why this fall was remarkable is how I landed - with virtually no impact. A neurologist said it best for me, "You have lost your place in space." Every day I've been trying to retrain my brain to work around the damaged area (neuroplasticity). I don't know how to calculate the progress of neuroplasticity. I can, however, assess the inevitable result of daily 2 hour trips to the gym combined with an increasing difficulty in consuming calories.
What has evolved is the way I'm falling. As long as my place in space is gone (in my brain anyway) I will continue to fall over periodically. For those of you not familiar with frequent falls (and there is no earthly reason why anyone normal would be) they are unexpected, painful and really fast. It can happen anywhere I was sitting on a stable surface with my patient spouse right next to me and I fell off - fast.
Before my spouse could react and inquire whether or not I was alright, I was up and seated again. I landed not on my head or even my tailbone but on my hands! There was no impact because I could control my musculature as I fell. I am expending many more calories than I'm taking in. So I'm slowly losing weight. More permanently, I believe. I've been working out rehabbing daily and for the first time I have tangible, measurable results. Not falling would be optimal. If I'm going to fall, however, I want to bounce up and back with no effect. One small log off the Bonfire O' Stress!
It is the law of physics (I think) that has allowed me to start reaching my goals and shrink the old Bonfire down a bit. I have a long list of things to fix It is a little gratifying to see some laws are well, law.Since it seems I will live on I'm going to be really tickled (in a very grim kind of way) any time I see any causal relationship's result no matter how predictable or small. So yes, you will have to hear about it.
My faith in the laws of physics was partially restored today. I fell down which is not restorative or particularly unusual for me. Why this fall was remarkable is how I landed - with virtually no impact. A neurologist said it best for me, "You have lost your place in space." Every day I've been trying to retrain my brain to work around the damaged area (neuroplasticity). I don't know how to calculate the progress of neuroplasticity. I can, however, assess the inevitable result of daily 2 hour trips to the gym combined with an increasing difficulty in consuming calories.
What has evolved is the way I'm falling. As long as my place in space is gone (in my brain anyway) I will continue to fall over periodically. For those of you not familiar with frequent falls (and there is no earthly reason why anyone normal would be) they are unexpected, painful and really fast. It can happen anywhere I was sitting on a stable surface with my patient spouse right next to me and I fell off - fast.
Before my spouse could react and inquire whether or not I was alright, I was up and seated again. I landed not on my head or even my tailbone but on my hands! There was no impact because I could control my musculature as I fell. I am expending many more calories than I'm taking in. So I'm slowly losing weight. More permanently, I believe. I've been working out rehabbing daily and for the first time I have tangible, measurable results. Not falling would be optimal. If I'm going to fall, however, I want to bounce up and back with no effect. One small log off the Bonfire O' Stress!
It is the law of physics (I think) that has allowed me to start reaching my goals and shrink the old Bonfire down a bit. I have a long list of things to fix It is a little gratifying to see some laws are well, law.Since it seems I will live on I'm going to be really tickled (in a very grim kind of way) any time I see any causal relationship's result no matter how predictable or small. So yes, you will have to hear about it.
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