Sunday, May 5, 2013

If You're the Happiest Tree in the Forest Does Anyone Hear You When You Fall Over?

Hello Fellow Travelers!

I don't think I have conveyed to you how great I feel since the tumor was removed in 2011.   I feel amazing! I am silent and have no idea how I'll ever walk again, but it's only temporary!  I'm feeling great!  Better than I have felt in years!  I have been forced to be quiet and I take time to listen to everything.  Being a reasonably intelligent person I know the value of a last chance, but it's still a test of courage.  I thought the surgeries would fix the irritating inability to walk or speak. but they didn't repair anything as near as I can tell.    So it's been a tricky recovery and I don't know precisely what to do next.   Finding out what to do will probably require a lot of courage, it's the finding that is going to be the challenge.

After the evil tumor was removed I discovered my good old self.  I always woke up excited to see what the the day would bring.   I feel that way now although I'm also aware of every day bringing us all one step closer to the grave.  No kidding.  Therefore, for years  I haven't given a hoot about lots of personal entanglements that are of concern to others and used to matter to me. I see everything and everyone a little differently.  I can't stand cursing or arguing.  Either one makes me cry.  I don't worry about anything.  I notice everything.

My full sense of humor is back, as well as my keen awareness of the  ridiculous situation I find myself in.  I am constantly attacked and challenged by the most ordinary of circumstances.  Tomorrow I see the neurosurgeon to get the staples clipped at which time I will inquire "Dude,   WTF?"  Something along those lines.  But "WTF?" is what I'll mean and though I don't expect him to have an answer you never know.

If the good Dr. has nothing new to suggest, I will forge ahead until I am satisfied I have turned over every rock in that great quarry of medical knowledge.  And believe me feeling great despite relatively disastrous symptoms.is a gift - no matter where it comes from.

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