Hello Fellow Travelers!
I am feeling very sad today. I can't find my younger niece on the internet and she needs me. Her parents split up several years ago and she lives with her father. She was always a live wire. In recent years I have been reduced to following her exploits on Facebook. She's funny, fearless and is completely honest about her life as only the young can be.
Recently, she made some poor choice or other that got her kicked out of school (Temporarily,I hope) and of course I heard about it and when a parent asked why she did that particular thing she said something uncharacteristic for her but terribly routine for those in her age group, "I dunno".
What is making me so sad is there is almost nothing I can do to help her. I can't drive or even fly to help her. I can't even talk on the phone. This is where this brain tumor situation gets really tiresome. I'm not by nature, the type that will sit on the sidelines and hope she grows out of it. This condition I am in forces me to prod others into making phone calls to find out if my niece is still among the living and I get a second-hand answer at that. It really is hard!
One day, for a split second, I thought I was waking to the sensation of everything being back to normal. I was not the person plagued with pain. There was no ringing in my ears and the constant feeling of falling and spinning. It was only for a second or two and I'm sure I dreamed it, but it was so real. I was so relieved! It all was a long, really bad dream. Nope. I really woke up and it is all here; the vertigo, the double vision and the lost-in-space feeling.
I hope she can hold on until Spring. I hope I can, too.
PS: From the Network that gave us, "Who the @#$!!! Did I Marry?" comes, "Wives with Knives," seriously, next week on ID.
I am feeling very sad today. I can't find my younger niece on the internet and she needs me. Her parents split up several years ago and she lives with her father. She was always a live wire. In recent years I have been reduced to following her exploits on Facebook. She's funny, fearless and is completely honest about her life as only the young can be.
Recently, she made some poor choice or other that got her kicked out of school (Temporarily,I hope) and of course I heard about it and when a parent asked why she did that particular thing she said something uncharacteristic for her but terribly routine for those in her age group, "I dunno".
What is making me so sad is there is almost nothing I can do to help her. I can't drive or even fly to help her. I can't even talk on the phone. This is where this brain tumor situation gets really tiresome. I'm not by nature, the type that will sit on the sidelines and hope she grows out of it. This condition I am in forces me to prod others into making phone calls to find out if my niece is still among the living and I get a second-hand answer at that. It really is hard!
One day, for a split second, I thought I was waking to the sensation of everything being back to normal. I was not the person plagued with pain. There was no ringing in my ears and the constant feeling of falling and spinning. It was only for a second or two and I'm sure I dreamed it, but it was so real. I was so relieved! It all was a long, really bad dream. Nope. I really woke up and it is all here; the vertigo, the double vision and the lost-in-space feeling.
I hope she can hold on until Spring. I hope I can, too.
PS: From the Network that gave us, "Who the @#$!!! Did I Marry?" comes, "Wives with Knives," seriously, next week on ID.
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